Hola, I am Zulhay

Thank you for being here and taking the time to learn more about me.

 

As a child: 

I grew up in an unstable home, exposed to emotional abuse and negativity. From a young age, I learned how to survive, adapt, and keep going—even when things didn’t feel safe or steady. I’m the middle child of nine—six girls and three boys—and being in the middle shaped me deeply. I became a listener, a peacemaker, and someone who learned to put others first, often before myself.

I often prayed to God for one simple thing—that one day I would have a man who would love me so deeply he would never hurt me the way my father hurt my mother. I held onto that prayer for years.

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As an adult:

I found myself with a broken heart, full of bitterness, and a single mom to two beautiful boys. During the darkest season of my life, even their presence felt like a reminder of my failures, and that realization tore my soul apart. My self-esteem was shattered, and I truly believed that I had nothing to offer this world.

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I tried traditional therapy, but it didn’t fully reach what I was carrying inside. I leaned into my faith, believing it should be enough—but when the pain didn’t fade, I felt deep shame. I wondered if I wasn’t loving God enough or trusting Him the right way. 

There was a time when the pain felt so heavy that I begged God to take me out of this world, believing it was the only way to escape the suffering and emptiness I felt.

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One day after a desperate prayer I asked God to show me what his purpose was for my life, then I opened the bible to find an answer and it opened in a highlighted scripture   1 Corinthians 2:9. Tears rolled down my eyes and I made a promise that day to God "I will never allow my feelings to make me believe you are not in control, I surrender to you." Surrendering to my higher power made me feel better, but there was still sadness in me that I could not shake off. 

 

As a Holistic Healer:

In 2014 I was introduced to holistic meditation by a friend, and it was like young Aang  (The Avatar) going into the avatar stage and connecting with his inner self. Meditation makes me feel like I am connected to God's pure energy. I feel a deeper stage of peace and positive energy that fuels my day. Since then, I have been taking classes and training with meditation masters to become a Master myself.

Through holistic meditation and inner healing work, I learned how to listen to my mind, honor my body, and reconnect with my soul. For the first time, I felt a grounded peace and a deep connection to God’s energy that supported true, lasting healing.

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Today, my greatest teachers are my sons. Through motherhood, I’ve learned that resilience is born in the moments we choose to stay, to heal, and to love again—starting with ourselves. My story is no longer one of failure, but of strength, growth, and hope.

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Whatever your situation is, I am sure you have the answer inside of you. Let us discover together what healing  means to you. I look forward to walking alongside you in your healing journey. 💛